Let me be honest, mentally this last few months have been incredibly challenging. My OCD has returned with some force. Day to day life is tough, waking up is awful, going to sleep is really bad! I’m just about managing, mainly because I’m stronger now! But it’s tiring, very tiring
This last weekend I took myself to Bristol to visit one of my best mates. I convinced him to run the Bristol Half Marathon. This race holds a big place in my heart, it’s where my running journey began 2 years ago. I loved it, running side by side, no time, just for fun. It gave me a chance to reflect on how far I’ve come.
This last two years has been truly life-changing. Since setting up Run4YourMind everything has changed for the better. Through opening up about my struggles I’ve spoken to and met people very similar to me. It’s a lonely battle, you think you’re on your own! Well I know I’m not now! This has given me the belief in myself to dream big and the strength to fight on.
I may never get better, but through mental illness, I’m a better man. I appreciate the little things. I surround myself with great people. I love those close to me more. I’m a better partner, brother, son, stepdad, friend than I could ever be. So OCD can fuck off! It can grind me down as much as it wants, but it will NOT define me!
Tomorrow scares me, so I’ve learnt to live in the moment! I think with OCD that’s the only way!